Ok, so this year I promised myself a lot of things, changes, money smarts, treating me to things. I will let you know now...not a lot has stayed in place. Im living with my mom, I am no longer dating Joel-although great guy, he was...controlling- and I have no more room for error.
My kids are healthy, happy and Im ok with the world and God. So, I do feel better. Ive been going through SO much. Drama with so called friends, missing my own house, feeling lost when I notice family who are doing better than me but only because they are helped so much. I want something in my life to go right!
Im sad that things dont go my way and I really want to be happy, married and loved. more than anything I want to be loved. The feeling everyone else says they have has seem to elude me for such a long time. I cant seem to accept what was in front of me. I continue to pray and things will turn out ok
I'm thankful for my lovely followers, for this blog to let me vent, write and let me get things off my chest. I want to do more writing and blogging. I think this will help me so much.
I did start a new job(not an 8-5) but its called 31 Gifts...its a personalized gift, totes, purses company. Its not bad but its slow taking off. So I wait and try to do my best getting sales.
A life of three, a mom and twins. Taking life's journey one day at a time!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Business
In started a new business called 31 Gifts! Its a personalized tote and purse company. I love purses, so I watched this company for a while, love love love their customer service, I love the products, the kit I got a few days ago!
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I'm a single mom and don't really want to work outside the home, but I need something coming in. So, I'm selling these wonderful purses and totes!
I hope you all might be interested in some hosting, please contact me! There are always ways to receive wonderful hostess rewards! Online, catalog, at your home and through a Party To Go!
Erika Swift
Independent Thirty One Consultant
719-229-3484
http://www.mythirtyone.com/erikasparty/
http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Thirty-One-Gifts-By-Erika-S/188537171179594?sk=wall
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Content, happy or bliss
This week has been so long! I cant believe tomorrow is Friday and I wont have to do too much until Sunday night!
Have you ever had one of those weeks where things just didnt...flow right? Or things seemed to not fit in to your master plan? Thats been my week. I love planning and I plan to love on planning for the rest of my life. Things just werent going my way. I'm ok though because I noticed that whenever something started to go wrong or out of whack, I took a step back.
Can I control this? Does this really need to cause me this much stress? Do I really need to eat this chocolate? (Yes, to the last one). I took that step back and realized a few things about me and my life. I tend to cause more stress for myself than to elevate it. I worry so much before the project has even started that I set myself up for failure. I need to stop that.
My goals and some plans for myself is to really do my best to think positive, change my outlook, notice things about me that are delicious.
My week was downright lousy. My pregnant sister and her three kids moved back in to the three bedroom place we are staying at, and she is one to believe that because she has four kids, she is the mother of all mothers. I had a ticket from the mail meter today, I couldnt seem to shake a huge doubt about me and the man Im soon to marry. I struggled with patient with the twins. I havent done anything for me in a year and a half. My wedding budget is too small but work-able and I cant seem to shake this awful headache. My week sucked to say the least. But with prayer, patience and love from my kids, I felt bliss.
How do you find time to be content, how do you find your own bliss, happiness, joy when the day youre having isnt the best of days. How do you find time to just be you?
Ive learned that being me, ELS, I am a happier person once I can follow a plan and I tend to do better with plans. However, life happens and plans tend to go array. The best thing to do is pray, breath and take those steps back.
Have you ever had one of those weeks where things just didnt...flow right? Or things seemed to not fit in to your master plan? Thats been my week. I love planning and I plan to love on planning for the rest of my life. Things just werent going my way. I'm ok though because I noticed that whenever something started to go wrong or out of whack, I took a step back.
Can I control this? Does this really need to cause me this much stress? Do I really need to eat this chocolate? (Yes, to the last one). I took that step back and realized a few things about me and my life. I tend to cause more stress for myself than to elevate it. I worry so much before the project has even started that I set myself up for failure. I need to stop that.
My goals and some plans for myself is to really do my best to think positive, change my outlook, notice things about me that are delicious.
My week was downright lousy. My pregnant sister and her three kids moved back in to the three bedroom place we are staying at, and she is one to believe that because she has four kids, she is the mother of all mothers. I had a ticket from the mail meter today, I couldnt seem to shake a huge doubt about me and the man Im soon to marry. I struggled with patient with the twins. I havent done anything for me in a year and a half. My wedding budget is too small but work-able and I cant seem to shake this awful headache. My week sucked to say the least. But with prayer, patience and love from my kids, I felt bliss.
How do you find time to be content, how do you find your own bliss, happiness, joy when the day youre having isnt the best of days. How do you find time to just be you?
Ive learned that being me, ELS, I am a happier person once I can follow a plan and I tend to do better with plans. However, life happens and plans tend to go array. The best thing to do is pray, breath and take those steps back.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
OMG!!
So, Ive been dating this wonderfully great guy and he has been simply amazing. His name is Joel, Ive known him for a few years now, but never seemed to like him like that. So we stayed friends!
I moved back home (from AZ to CO) in December and it was the greatest, yet most stressful thing for me. I wanted to be happy...inside and out, yet things werent looking like that was going to happen. Well, Joel pops into my life the moment I start praying for better. I then see him with the twins and realize that I DO like him like that.
So, now we are dating! Its been a glorious time and this...start to my future has felt so right and so comfortable. He is encouraging, loving, wonderful and full of life and love. He is smart, talented, funny and so spiritual. He loves the kids as if they were his own and he makes sure they are taken care of has well.
I couldnt have asked for anyone better and I am so glad that God was listening to my prayer and gave me what I needed and not just what I wanted.
So, here is the awesome part as well. We know we want to get married. we have a date (sept 16, 2011) and we know our budget (5k). I dont have a ring yet but he is going to purpose in March!! We arent your traditional couple and since I do have kids already, we've been very open on this relationship!
The wedding planner in me has been bursting with things to do, the checklists and everything else that only goes into the planning process, not to mention handling the wedding. However the respective, lets not talk about anything until after we are officially engaged girlfriend is BURSTING to start planning.
Well, my lovely blog followers, he gave me the green light tonight and told me to plan my heart out! I wanted to share my joy and excitement with you all!! I started another blog for my wedding planning, the new journey, the changes and PICTURES!!!
http://meyouthemforever.blogspot.com/
I hope you all follow my journey!
Oh...PS!!!! He said he was thinking of proposing sooner rather than later....an engagement story might be here soon!!!
I moved back home (from AZ to CO) in December and it was the greatest, yet most stressful thing for me. I wanted to be happy...inside and out, yet things werent looking like that was going to happen. Well, Joel pops into my life the moment I start praying for better. I then see him with the twins and realize that I DO like him like that.
So, now we are dating! Its been a glorious time and this...start to my future has felt so right and so comfortable. He is encouraging, loving, wonderful and full of life and love. He is smart, talented, funny and so spiritual. He loves the kids as if they were his own and he makes sure they are taken care of has well.
I couldnt have asked for anyone better and I am so glad that God was listening to my prayer and gave me what I needed and not just what I wanted.
So, here is the awesome part as well. We know we want to get married. we have a date (sept 16, 2011) and we know our budget (5k). I dont have a ring yet but he is going to purpose in March!! We arent your traditional couple and since I do have kids already, we've been very open on this relationship!
The wedding planner in me has been bursting with things to do, the checklists and everything else that only goes into the planning process, not to mention handling the wedding. However the respective, lets not talk about anything until after we are officially engaged girlfriend is BURSTING to start planning.
Well, my lovely blog followers, he gave me the green light tonight and told me to plan my heart out! I wanted to share my joy and excitement with you all!! I started another blog for my wedding planning, the new journey, the changes and PICTURES!!!
http://meyouthemforever.blogspot.com/
I hope you all follow my journey!
Oh...PS!!!! He said he was thinking of proposing sooner rather than later....an engagement story might be here soon!!!
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